Don't get your hopes up, don't let your guard down.

-Unknown

Got a call from the nephrologist a little bit ago. It seems the potassium has gone up a couple tenths of a point to 5.6 or 5.7 and she wants to try a new medication to try to bring it down. The far worse news is that the creatinine has also shot up. 2 months ago the reading was 3.09 and had ( Read more... )

“Life is just a slow march towards death.”

-MarleyGot my blood test results today from the PCP. Overall, I guess the results are nothing to complain about. My creatinine went up slightly to 3.06 from 2.97 at the end of December, which itself was up from 2.84 a couple weeks before that. I don't know what the sensitivity for these sort of tests ( Read more... )

The only real things in life is the unexpected things. Everything else is just an illusion.

-Watkin Tudor Jones

Frankly, I could use a little less reality then since all the unexpected things in my life tend to be crappy. Everything had sort of slid into a new normalcy lately. All the tests had been performed and I was just pretty much waiting for ( Read more... )

I hate having to go for all these batteries of tests. Every single time they draw another dozen vials of blood or run me through some scanner I feel a sense of impending doom. After all, various things have gone to crap when I thought things were finally starting to turn around so clearly lightning can strike out of a clear blue sky. Well, maybe ( Read more... )

In my mind, it is certainly much nicer to end on a high note rather than on a Stout Pig.
-Dave Blood
Went to see another Nephrologist this past Tuesday and it's pretty much a case of 3rd verse, same as the first. There doesn't seem to be anything that can be done as far as treatments or even interventions at this point. It seems clear enough that ( Read more... )

'I thought I'd reached the bottom a few times, but then I'd realise there was another 30 floors of despair below that.'

-Trent ReznorEverything I've been reading about the transplant list honestly just makes me think that perhaps it's the better part of valor to just give up. Every step is another hurdle, behind ever door another horror. I'm ( Read more... )

'But if there must be an end, let it be loud. Let it be bloody. Better to burn than to wither away in the dark.'

-Mike MignolaOnce upon a time that is probably how I would have felt. Anger and resentment, rage and fury. Now I'm just tired and resigned. Maybe it's yet another of the basket of symptoms that are supposed to be cropping up but who ( Read more... )